As I started reading Lean In by Sheryl Sandberg, I had to put it down multiple times, shell-shocked! How come she was in my head talking about each of my issues as her issues, and speaking the words that could be coming out of my mouth! To realize that someone as powerful and successful as Sheryl (5th in the World’s Most Powerful Women Forbes List, like really!!) has felt many moments of self-doubt, feelings of the Imposter Syndrome, feeling guilty of her achievements, constantly judging herself to a higher standard, wanting to be liked by everyone, trying to smile through difficult situations and even bursting in tears in the office in front of her boss made me feel communal and validated! Clearly, we must be soul sisters connected via an invisible web of neural transmitters. I have experienced almost every trait Sheryl talks about in the book and more. It is disheartening to know that a majority (or all?!) women feel this way and yet an enlightening feeling to know that it is okay to feel vulnerable, it is okay to feel a bit scared, it’s okay to take a risk and stretch yourself as long as we learn the tricks of the game and fake it till we make it.
In my own career, I have gone through many ups and downs, moved countries after marriage, been forced to sit at home as my visa status did not allow me to work, taken a break to raise my family, and fought tooth and nail to get back in the workforce. Someone once put me down for staying at home raising my family and supposedly cruising through life while she was working non-stop and raising her kids! I have been on both sides of the grass and know never to judge anyone for their choices. It is hard staying at home and raising kids and it is hard working full time and raising kids. It has not been an easy journey, but it has been very educational, and in hindsight, sometimes a very entertaining one.
I have had a friend tell me that as a hiring manager he never looks at a resume with a break in it and tosses it straight into the trash. Yet I have also had a friend who believed in me and entrusted me with establishing and leading the Social Media platform for his company! I am thankful for the first one for discouraging me and, at the same time, getting me fired up to prove him wrong. I will also be eternally grateful to the second one for believing in me and giving me that opportunity. I haven't looked back ever since.
I have had wonderful male and female bosses who trusted me to do big projects based on my potential, pushed me to think harder, shone the spotlight on me to acknowledge my successes and supported me in every way possible in my career goals, even offering their shoulder when I heard particularly devastating news and could not hold it together.
And yes, I have also fought back with a boss who once tried to humiliate me in front of the whole office - I was a mere fresh graduate who dared to challenge a particularly sexist male VP in India. I cried while I stood up for myself but I am damn proud of it. Interestingly years later I got a Facebook friend request from him which I never accepted! Of course, I have learned a great many lessons since my early days! I have learned to stand up for what is right, ask for my due promotions, raises, more challenging projects, and been commended for keeping calm and being a professional in very difficult situations. I have learned to say I don't know it yet but I will and scrambled like crazy to learn while appearing calm on the surface with a smile on! And I have so much to learn still.
As a woman manager and a mother of girls, I am strongly committed to helping women junior to me become self-assured, accomplished, and confident. It does sound like a cliché but I believe my biggest achievement is raising fiercely independent and strong daughters. My daughter read Lean In in her freshman year (9th grade) and was so moved and motivated by it that she started a Lean In club at her high school, realizing the need to address and help overcome the insecurities and uncertainty of high school teenage girls. It is heartening to see how eager both male and female executives in the Bay Area have been in supporting her club.
Thanks to all the strong women before me and the strong young ones, I see more women taking the seat at the table making loud yet compelling noise with a smile on their faces and hands raised. If we want to achieve a 50/50 balance in the workplace, we need to start young. We need to tell girls to not be ashamed if they are called bossy but wear it as a proud badge. Bossy girl = Leader in making! We have a long way to go but I am very hopeful and excited about the future.
Oh, my daughter's favorite t-shirt these days is "Pretty like Daddy, Smart like Mommy"!!
Ending this with one of my favorite quotes:
In my own career, I have gone through many ups and downs, moved countries after marriage, been forced to sit at home as my visa status did not allow me to work, taken a break to raise my family, and fought tooth and nail to get back in the workforce. Someone once put me down for staying at home raising my family and supposedly cruising through life while she was working non-stop and raising her kids! I have been on both sides of the grass and know never to judge anyone for their choices. It is hard staying at home and raising kids and it is hard working full time and raising kids. It has not been an easy journey, but it has been very educational, and in hindsight, sometimes a very entertaining one.
I have had a friend tell me that as a hiring manager he never looks at a resume with a break in it and tosses it straight into the trash. Yet I have also had a friend who believed in me and entrusted me with establishing and leading the Social Media platform for his company! I am thankful for the first one for discouraging me and, at the same time, getting me fired up to prove him wrong. I will also be eternally grateful to the second one for believing in me and giving me that opportunity. I haven't looked back ever since.
I have had wonderful male and female bosses who trusted me to do big projects based on my potential, pushed me to think harder, shone the spotlight on me to acknowledge my successes and supported me in every way possible in my career goals, even offering their shoulder when I heard particularly devastating news and could not hold it together.
And yes, I have also fought back with a boss who once tried to humiliate me in front of the whole office - I was a mere fresh graduate who dared to challenge a particularly sexist male VP in India. I cried while I stood up for myself but I am damn proud of it. Interestingly years later I got a Facebook friend request from him which I never accepted! Of course, I have learned a great many lessons since my early days! I have learned to stand up for what is right, ask for my due promotions, raises, more challenging projects, and been commended for keeping calm and being a professional in very difficult situations. I have learned to say I don't know it yet but I will and scrambled like crazy to learn while appearing calm on the surface with a smile on! And I have so much to learn still.
As a woman manager and a mother of girls, I am strongly committed to helping women junior to me become self-assured, accomplished, and confident. It does sound like a cliché but I believe my biggest achievement is raising fiercely independent and strong daughters. My daughter read Lean In in her freshman year (9th grade) and was so moved and motivated by it that she started a Lean In club at her high school, realizing the need to address and help overcome the insecurities and uncertainty of high school teenage girls. It is heartening to see how eager both male and female executives in the Bay Area have been in supporting her club.
Thanks to all the strong women before me and the strong young ones, I see more women taking the seat at the table making loud yet compelling noise with a smile on their faces and hands raised. If we want to achieve a 50/50 balance in the workplace, we need to start young. We need to tell girls to not be ashamed if they are called bossy but wear it as a proud badge. Bossy girl = Leader in making! We have a long way to go but I am very hopeful and excited about the future.
Oh, my daughter's favorite t-shirt these days is "Pretty like Daddy, Smart like Mommy"!!
Ending this with one of my favorite quotes: